Since today is the day my surgery was originally scheduled for, I thought it appropriate to blog. First off, God blessed me by having the surgeon's office need to reschedule. Last week I was hit with a horrible cold. This week we have been battling a sometimes working air conditioner. Yesterday it hit 105 here. Everything is working now, but I can't imagine how stressed both my husband and I would be if I also was having surgery.
People keep telling me that I don't look heavy enough to have this surgery. I think it is partially because I am fit, but partially that we all compare ourselves to others. The surgeon told me that we don't know what normal looks like anymore. Teaching water aerobics means that I have a lot of muscle mass. Unfortunately, I also have a lot of fat on top of it.
The other question I get is how much weight do I want to lose or what is my goal weight. Honestly, I am not sure. It seems so far away to me right now to choose a number. Really, what I want is to get my body fat percentage down. A number on the scale doesn't take into account if those pounds are fat or muscle.
It's interesting to note that a lot of the focus is on how I look now and how I will look later. My goals are more based on health. My main reason for choosing surgery is get rid of diabetes and sleep apnea. The physical things I pray for are health and vitality. I want to have more energy. I want to not be afraid of physical activities. I want to be able to go up the stairs at a waterpark 10 times in a row and not have my blood sugar plummet (or have my knees creek, or have my thighs scream, or be huffing for breath). I feel like, my body will settle wherever is best for me. Looking good will be a bonus, but being thin is not my goal. My goal is to get this body strong and healthy.
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